Tumblr.

Hey, I'm on Tumblr now. It's more my style of blogging, and more of my friends are on Tumblr anyway.

http://misstessarose.tumblr.com/

(Btw, there will probably be a lot of venting along with other things like links, videos, audios, quotes, pictures, etc... so enter if you dare.)

-Tessa

"My Body Is A Cage" by Arcade Fire

My body is a cage that keeps me
From dancing with the one I love
But my mind holds the key

I'm standing on a stage
Of fear and self-doubt
It's a hollow play
But they'll clap anyway

My body is a cage that keeps me
From dancing with the one I love
But my mind holds the key

You're standing next to me
My mind holds the key

I'm living in an age
That calls darkness light
Though my language is dead
Still the shapes fill my head

I'm living in an age
Whose name I don't know
Though the fear keeps me moving
Still my heart beats so slow

My body is a cage that keeps me
From dancing with the one I love
But my mind holds the key

You're standing next to me
My mind holds the key
My body is a

(instrumental)

My body is a cage
We take what we're given
Just because you've forgotten
That don't mean you're forgiven

I'm living in an age
That screams my name at night
But when I get to the doorway
There's no one in sight

My body is a cage that keeps me
From dancing with the one I love
But my mind holds the key

You're standing next to me
My mind holds the key

Set my spirit free
Set my spirit free
Set my body free

-"My Body Is A Cage" from the album Neon Bible by Arcade Fire

By Your Side

 I was just feeling insanely hopeless tonight. Everything crashing down on me. Something in particular set me off and made me feel more helpless, alone, and hurt than I have in so long. When I was certain I was going to go insane, I saw that a friend was on and decided I was going insane and needed to unload some of all that was on my mind. Thank God for supportive people when everything sucks.

This song just came into my head, like God will come and help us when we feel most alone and hurt:

Why are you striving these days?
Why are you trying to earn grace?
Why are you crying?
Let me lift up your face, just don't turn away

Why are you looking for love?
Why are you still searching, as if I'm not enough?
To where will you go, child?
Tell me where will you run, to where will you run?

'Cause I'll be by your side wherever you fall
In the dead of night whenever you call
And please don't fight these hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you

Look at these hands at my side
They swallowed the grave on that night
When I drank the world's sin
So I could carry you in and give you life
I wanna give you life

And I'll be by your side wherever you fall
In the dead of night whenever you fall
And please don't fight these hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you

'Cause I, I love you
I want you to know
That I, I love you
I'll never let you go (no, no)

And I'll be by your side wherever you fall
In the dead of night whenever you call
And please don't fight these hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you

Here at my side wherever you fall
In the dead of night whenever you call
And please don't fight these hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you

Here at my side,
My hands are holding you.

- "By Your Side" by Tenth Avenue North

God is always there. God loves all of us. He loves those we reject and mock. He loves those we are afraid to love. He loves those who we opress and abuse.

He even loves the oppressors and abusers.

What an amazing God. I need so much grace. We all do. And here He is, this God of scandalous grace Who we try to put in a box.

Why I Haven't Been Posting

Hey whoever reads this! I've wanted to post stuff, but I've had a hard time having anything worth posting. I have plenty on my mind, none of it positive, and don't want to be an annoying whiner. So here is the question: extremely depressing things, or nothing at all?

-Tessa

My Blog

Hey Guys,

I don't know how many people will end up reading this, but I'm starting a blog to release. To rant, rave, and ramble. Quotes. Pictures. Randomness. Reading my many words will damage your eyes, and your sanity.

Yay!

-Tessa